A little personal…

So I’ve been thinking about something lately…

So many people I see on social media are having babies whether it be their first or third.

Now I want to make it clear I’m not judging at all; I’m not one of those people who think you need to be married to have children. I believe life decides when you’re ready and if you and your significant other decide if it’s what’s right. Plus, I think the ability to give birth is an amazing thing we as women have.

But it’s frustrating as hell for me..

Most people don’t know this but I found out pretty young that I can’t have children. Lately I’ve been having baby fever too so it kinda sucks that I could never know that feeling of being pregnant.

Now I’m not going to go into detail as to why I can’t have kids but someone who really wants her own family this truly does upset me. Some days it bothers me more and some days I realize maybe life made this happen so I can save a child by adopting them as my own.

I know there is that adoption route and other ways but really in this day in age that other stuff is extremely expensive and doesn’t seem possible for me ever at least with what I make an hour currently. (And I’ve done my fair share of research). Even if I was able to afford other options, there’s always the fact that the child won’t be biologically mine.

I know it may sound like I’m complaining in a way or jealous. I don’t want this to come off that way because like I said I don’t talk about this often. Sometimes I just need to get things off your chest and this is something I honestly think about a lot.

When I was younger I didn’t think of it as being that big of a deal either. Now, if I talk about it to people it makes it more of a reality being 24.

But, No matter what I always believe things happen for a reason and I know one day I’m going to make adoption work and hopefully be as good a mom as my mother has been to me.

Until next time,

T

6 thoughts on “A little personal…”

  1. I understand what you’re going through because I can’t have kids either. Im sorry you can’t have a kid that is biologically yours and I know you would be an amazing mom.

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  2. Wow this was very moving. I myself am still going through the process of figuring out if I will ever be able to have children of my own. I found out at the age of 18 that there is a good chance if I got pregnant that I can risk not only the child’s life but my own and it hasn’t started to affect me until now as I get older. It’s crazy how when one person speaks up you find out how many people struggle with similar battles everyday. I send positive vibes and good faith your way Theresa!

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    1. Wow I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling with that. It’s so tough when you want to have a child but it might not be safe for your health or the babies. I’m glad to know I’m not alone and I have some women who can relate. Positive vibes to you too! Everything will work out 🙂

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